4 Agustus 2011 - Please

I hate my life.

And my life hates me.

I'm too scare with my life.

Feeling like there's better without life.

Life is better than me.

I'm like a broken homed girl.

Such a mess!

Being ignored...

All what I do are wrong!

What the hell with these all???

Dont they think that all what they said really hurt me?

Or they're too selfish to understand me?

Dad, why you cant understand me anymore?

Mom, where's the justice?

3rd brother, why you treat me like this?

Hell-o!

Eventhough you saw me smile, doesnt mean that I dont cry and accept everything that happen to me!!

I'm so sad until cant cry outside, but inside? I'm feeling like a broken glass.

Who can I share with? No one!

All people too busy for me.

I want a friend who can stay in my side whenever I'm sad not only when I'm happy.

I'm too hurt today. My eyes, my mind and my heart also too full with the pain. And it cant stop!

Please, be what the real family for......

1. Understand others

2. Be there when I need

3. Cheer me when I'm down

But you're all never do it to me..

Maybe it's not important for you all, but for me it's all very meaning. Although little things you do to me, I'm happy at least you make a thing for me.

Please, Dad, Mom, Brother, dont dare me...

Dad, I dont want to talk with you because I dont want you to blame me because of everything. I'm sorry.

Mom, I dont want to see you because I dont want you  mad at me with all the things I made wrong or nothing I do. All the things I do are wrong in your eyes, that's why I always lock myself inside my room. I'm sorry.

3rd brother, I dont want to have a talk with you because these weeks everytime I try to talk with you, your words likes a sword to me. Hurt me. But you just fine with that all. I'm feeling ignored. I'm sorry.

What can I do now...

I only can accept with the things happen to me, bad or good. May I can get through this #amin